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If you love something , let it go . If it comes back to you , its yours forever . If it doesn't , then it was never meant to be .
1.52pm , 15March .



Hello people <: ! Just went to see doctor ._. . Its torturing me , carrying a heavy head out ): . And my face looks so shag >: .
I'm sick again D: .
I need to R.O.T at home for 2days ! -.-
Pathetic , hopefully , i could persuade mum to let me out tomorrow !
Hahah . Okaye , i need to get some rest already /: .
Just ate medicine and felt alittle bit sleepy :X .
Sleep awhile then need to go see xing li yi sheng x.x .
Kill me pleaseee /: .
After that straight go tuition /: .
Then after tuition dad wants to bring everyone go fishing again ): .
;eeks , but i'm sick !
& fishing sucks TTM !
*Cries* .

See Doctor > Sleep awhile > Go NUH > See Xing li yi sheng > Tuition > Fishing/Home ._.

I guess i won't be able to meet JonathanCheryl&Jordan and all for superduper LOOOONG !
Because , they're going back to study and take their test already ): .
So yeah , takecare uh ! (:
Luckily i could meet you guys before you all FLY !
Hahah ! :P


哭過就好了 .






♥ True love is not how you forgive , but how you forget . Not what you see but what you feel . No how you listen but how you understand . And not how you let go but how you hold on .



I’m tired of being sad . I’m tired of crying . I’m tired of heartaches . I’m tired of feeling empty inside . I’m tired of feeling inadequate and helpless . I’m tired of feeling stuck . I’m tired of feeling crazy . I’m tired of how insecured I am . I’m tired of how my emotion flies around like a rollarcoaster ride . I’m tired of being alone . I’m tired of dramas . I’m tired of the world . I’m tired of pretending . I’m tired of dreaming a life I know I will never have . I’m tired of missing people . I’m tired of people walking out of my life . I’m tired of myself . I’m tired of being angry . I’m tired of needing help . I’m tired of lies . I’m tired of empty promises . I’m tired of being different . I’m tired of faking it . I’m tired of wishing things could start all over again . I’m tired of being not ok . I’m tired wondering when I’m going to be happy .

I’m tired of being tired .

This is really straining me , I could hardly breathe .



Boy: Baby, we need to talk .
Girl: Ricardo , what do u mean ?
Boy: Something has come up …
Girl: What ? What’s wrong ? Is it bad ?
Boy: I don’t want to hurt you , baby .
Girl: *Thinks* Oh my God , I hope he doesn't break up with me … I love him so much .
Boy: Baby , are you there ??
Girl: Yeah , I’m here . What is so important ??
Boy: I’m not sure if I should say it ...
Girl: Well , you already brought it up , so please just tell me .
Boy: I’m leaving …
Girl: Baby , what are u talking about ?? I don’t want you to leave me , I love you .
Boy: Not like that , I mean I’m moving far away .
Girl: Why ? All of your family lives over here .
Boy: Well , my father is sending me away to a boarding school far away .
Girl: I can’t believe this .

[FATHER: (Picks up the other phone , interrupts & yells furiously ERICA !, what did I tell you about talking to boys ?!!! … Get off the damn phone !! (And hangs up) .

Boy: Wow , your father sounds really mad .
Girl: You know how he gets , but anyways , I don't want you to go .
Boy: Would you run away with me ?
Girl: Baby , you know I would , I would do anything for you , but I can’t … You don’t know what would happen if I did . My dad would kill me !
Boy: *Sad* It’s okaye .. I understand , I guess ..
Girl: *Thinking* I can’t believe what’s going on .
Boy: I need to give you something tonight , because I am leaving onflight 1-80 in the morning , so I need to see you now .
Girl: Okaye , I will sneak out & meet you at the park .
Boy: Okaye , I’ll meet you there in 20 minutes .

[They meet at a nearby park , they both hug eachother . And he gives her a note .]

Boy: Here you go , this is for you . I gotta go .
Girl: *Tear* (Begins to cry .)
Boy: Baby , don't cry , you know I love you … But I have to go .
Girl: Okaye (Begins to walk away .)

[They both go back home . And Erica begins to read the letter he gave her .]

It says … “ Erica , You probably already know that I’m leaving , I knew this would be better if I wrote a letter explaining the truth about how much I care about you . The truth is , is that I never loved you , I hated you so much , you are my bitch and don't you ever forget that . I never cared about you , and never wanted to talk to you , and be around you . You really have no clue how much I hate you . Now that I’m leaving I thought you should know that I hate you , bitch . You never did the right thing , and you were never there . I didn't think I could hate someone as much as I hate you . And I never want to see you , for the rest of my life , I will never miss kissing you like before , I never want to cuddle up , how we used to . I will not miss you and that’s a promise . You never had my love , and I want you to remember that . Bitch , you keep this letter because this may be the last thing you have from me . Fuck , I hate you so much . I will not talk to you soon bitch … Goodbye .
- Ricardo ”

[ Erica begins to cry , she throws the paper in the garbage & cries for hours ] …

A day passes , she is sad , depressed and she feels so lonely … Then she gets a phone call ….

Friend: How are you feeling ?
Girl: I just cant believe this happened .. I thought he loved me .
Friend: Oh , about that . Ricardo left me a message . A few days ago . He told me to tell you to look in your jacket pocket or something …
Girl: Umm .. okay .

[ She finds a piece of paper in the jacket , It says: “ Baby I hope you find this before you read my letter . I knew your dad might read it , so I switched a few words …
Hate = Love
Never = Always
Bitch = Baby
Will not= will .
I hope you didn’t take that seriously because I love you with all my heart , and it was so hard to let you go thats why I wanted you to run away with me … - Ricardo ” ]

Girl: Oh my God ! It’s a letter .. Ricardo does love me !!, he must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me . I can’t believe how stupid I am !!
Friend: LOOLS ! Okaye but I gottogo … Call me later .
Girl: *happy* okaye , bye , I’ll be at home waiting for my baby to call me ! …

Erica turns the T.V. on ……

[Breaking news]

“ An airplane has crashed . Over 47 young boys died , we are still searching for survivors … This is a tragedy we will never forget , this plane was flight 1-80 … it was on its way to an all boys boarding school … ”
the Reporter says .

[ She turns off the t.v. … 3 days later , she kills herself , because of the fact that Ricardo was dead & she had nothing to live for … ] …

A day after that the phone rings . Nobody answers . It was Ricardo , he called to leave a message . “ Its Ricardo , I guess you’re not home so , I called to let you know that I’m alive , I missed my flight because I had to see you one last time . So , I hope your not worried . I am staying for good ...







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