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We can’t go back to how things used to be . Nothing is ever going to be the same again . It’s not my fault , so don’t blame me . You’re the one who decided to leave .
2.55pm , 12June .








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Sighz .
Why make my life so miserable for me ?
I thought that thats the end .
Its the end & thets the fact we can never be back again .
But ..
NOW MY MIND IS FULL OF WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY !!

你做了选择 对的错的我只能承认 心是痛的怀疑你舍得 我被伤的那么深就放声哭了 何必再强忍


就爱我一次好吗 ?
就算说几百次我不要再想你 , 我知道我还是做不到 .

Oh dear , what if i tell you i'm still thinking of you . Will you be back ?
Oh dear , what if i tell you i decided to love you wholeheartedly if there's a chance . Will you be back ?
Oh dear , what if i finally got the courage to tell you all along it was you ? Will you be back ?
Oh dear , oh dear , oh dear . I'm really going to be crazy .
Because i don't have enough confidence to tell you all this , to tell you how i feel .
Because i'm always thinking if i tell you & you still wouldn't be back . Isn't it worst .
All day long , i'm waiting for your texts . But never once my phone received a message from you . I'm very disappointed .
Thinking back , afew days after we broke . You would still message me , like nothing happens . But now ?
Seriously , i'm very very confused . ):


你曾经是我的唯一 .
你曾经是我的最爱 .
你曾经给我很多烦恼 .
你曾经是我每天最想看到 .
你曾经是我最想念的 .
你曾经是我的全部 .
你曾经弄我最想逃避的 .
可是今天就不同了, 但我可以确定是以前或未来 我都不会怪你 .
因为你曾经带给我一段幸福的日子 .


Life is hard to handle , luv is hard to let go , people tell you to live your life to the fullest , and some ask you to enjoy life while you can . Being single is somehow relief , but sad too , losing some one you love is painful , but yet you know its the best for both , its all fate's arrangement i guess , there won't be anymore river of tears already , seriously is it worth it ? Why am i even thinking about it , because i care , maybe a little too much . I've to act as if i don't care , you can't see how painful it is for me , because you think you know me , when actually , not that well . Maybe we didn't spend enough time together , or maybe its too much time together . I don't like relying on people already , i really don't . Probably , i should learn to be independent now .
Takecare & goodbye .











Updating now :>
Mood not really good atthemoment ..

I will try to cheer myself up hurr :/ .

K , time to do a proper post .

Something happened .
Lastnight ..

12am , i went down to get myself a drink ..
& yeah , police patrolling .__. .
I'm frigging suay enough ya ? -'-
Cb , shoot me with questions , expected me to remember all and answer in one shot .
Dream-on man , i'm not a genius for god-sake !

So i was kind of moody at that moment .
So , i just shout , FUCK LA , DIAM LEH .
Can one by one ask anot .

After that one police called don'tknow who come >< . Hellz . Fuck those police man . Useless ttm ? SMLJ sia . That police sayy . Whoaa , you again -.- . Girl ah girl . You tio so many case buaey sian one meh ? I catch you until sian sia . You this time ah , step into Police centre don't need come out for 3days already . Like wtfz right ?? Then jiaowei jiaowei jiaowei . Waste my time Called , brother come down . My brother kp the police until jialat >< . Hellz -.- . Then home-ed lor . Next day .. Nothing much . Night , went Arena before going Sentosa for clubbing . People want smuggle me in :$ . HAHA . But father called , want me back home NOW -'- . CB LA . Then home . Listen to him jiaoweis . While i'm listening music :P . Then , lj siaa . He want to terminate me from school sia . CB . Pekcek . Don'twant go out already . Fucker , spoils my mood _I_ . Bath and everything . Sleep . FUCK la . So what he's my dad . Why must i give him basic respect , when he's so fucking unreasonable ? Send me to GIRLS' HOME , WANT SEND , SEND SEND LA . Only know how threaten . Hey , parents . Talk without actions its = USELESS .__. . Dumb . Don't give a damn anyway :x . I got my own company , why should i waste my precious time on you ? BULLSHIT man -.- . Hellz . I want meet CHERYL & everyone now :( . HurHur ! They were worried dead for me yesterday :x . Sorry sisters and brothers D: ! See ya , tomorrow :> !

K la , enough of craps ..
I feel like making myself available ~
;hoho .
Joke .
Idon'tknow ~
Cheryl & Mini made themselves Single & Available ..
Wow ?
& pull me to join them along .__. .
& find stead .
HAHA .
Seefirst o.o .
;lala .
I guess that MINI is attached already :> .
HAHA ! :P
Lastlong Lastlong ^^ .
& i'm attached too :) .
I'm attached to CHERYLLEEMINYI !
MUACKS <3>

Byebye ~ :)



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Guys are just like that .
They get you over and done with .
When you haven't get into a relationship ,
He will treat you extremely Nice & Caring .

However, when they got you .
They took it for granted .
You are no longer important .

What leftover are just those broken promises ..
Scattered all around the floor .