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True love is not how you forgive , but how you forget . Not what you see but what you feel . No how you listen but how you understand . And not how you let go but how you hold on .
7.28pm , 13August .




Hello readers x) .
Okaye , hmm ..

I didn't went to meet-up with X.Mini' Sist & Stephy' Bittch today :( .
Anyway , its okaye also hurr , because they're settling some stuffs with , errr ..
NOYB also ^^ & NOMB too ! :>
& yeah , i didn't went to meet them because my parents want me to be back home early espcially today y'know .

Also , not to dissapoint them , i went to X.Ponster's house and get my lappy and stuffs (x .
How kind of him to help me with my stuffs hurr ! :D
I WANNA GO HER HOUSE TON AGAINAGINAGAIN ):):): .
But , the nextime i'll be going stephy' bittch's house and TON ! x) (As i promised her .)

Okaye , anyway ..
Its my brother's birthday today :) .

So sway hurrr ?
Falls on the 13TH ! FRIDAY SOMEMORE !
WOAH ! :x

Anyway , many people might not know whats wrong with 13th falling onthefriday yeah ? :>



"Friday 13th is unlucky for some . The risk of hospital admission as a result of a transport accident may be increased by as much as 52 percent . Staying at home is recommended ."

Anyway , i failed my 2.4 again .
Yeah , again and again and again :( .

Sighz ..



School today , don't feel like elaboration .
TOTALLY -'- .

Hate school ttm nowadays .
SO MANY 2-FACED PEOPLE & 3-FACED PEOPLE nowadays ! >:(
I simply hate that ttm .

Hey people out there x) .
Its okaye if you hate me ya . Its not that i'm desperate to have you as my friend -.- .
PUI ! 不希罕 ！CB .
Tell me if you hate me , you don't have to speak ills behind my back .
You don't have to treat me like you're a angel infront of me , and a f. devil behind my back .
Nbcb , thats really makes me PUKE !!
You know how to spell ? x)
I teach you ya .
PU - KE :) .
So easy , as easy AS ABC !!

Its okaye if you hates me , as long as i hates you , i'm okaye :D .
I can just treat you like a transparent object y'know y'know ! (:

Hehehehe , thats how clever i'm !
Pathetic dogs /: .
Pitydieyou nah ! x)




After school , pekcek -.- .
FUCK .

Elaborate behindbehind x) .



CCA today .
Sian ttm .

I wish i didn't went , waste my time .
PUBOR LA .

Whatever nah .

Errrrrrrrrr , was playing "catching" with MS AMANDA LEE .
Was f. hilarious -.- .

Ran around the whole school to avoid her .
Wtfz .
What shit sia ?!!!!?



Went home early x) .
6.30pm .

Then , Mum question me this ..
Suddenly .

She was talking to me nicely , while guailan her /: .

Mum : Where you go after school ?
Me : You huanlo ?
Mum : Answer me .
Me : Forget la .
Mum : SIGH .
Me : What la , forget , forget la , also no big deal .
Mum : You told me you stop le ..
Me : HUH ? o:
Mum : You told me you stop everything le , now what ? I told you lots of times le , don't mix don't mix , don't mix with those cao ahlian .
Me : CB LA , what cao ahlian ? CAN MIND YOUR LANGUAGE ANOT !?
Mum : Ok nevermind . Then smoking ? You said you stop ..
Me : Ya la ya la . I smoke so ?

- Brother chup in . -

Brother : Fuck la , today my birthday also want quarrel -.- .
Me : DIAM LA HOR .
Mum : Y'know , that 11floor aunty told me everything !?
Me : Whatthefuck she tell you ? Nbcb .
Mum : She say , you scold her vulgar , you and 3boys don'tknow at there do what , then she saw you smoking ..
Me : CCB LA . SMLJ sia . I scold her vulgar ? OI , get the fucking facts clear hor , i said SORRY not VULGAR -_- .
Mum : Then the 3boys ?
Me : My senior la -.- . I cannot mix around with boys ? Cb la , i studying in mix school you tell me cannot mix , in your dream nah .
Brother : WOI , diam leyz .
Me : YOU THEN DIAMDIAM LA SIAL .

- Sit down on the sofa and listen . -

Mum : She said .. you bully her children and everything .
Me : KNNBPCB LA , PUBOR YAO SIU .
Brother : Eh , mei ? What happened .

- Open door . -
- Slam the door hardhard . -

Brother : Eh , where you going ?
Me : GO ELEVEN FLOOR LA , ccb .

- Press lift . -

Brother : Bo bring lighter ?

- Go into the lift . -

Me : Bo , an zua ?
Brother : BURN HER HOUSE LA !
Me : Siao , we living in the same block horrr -_- .

- Come out from the lift . -
- Stand outside , discuss . -

Brother : We can anytime ban jia de mah , kum gong .
Me : Fuck you la horr /: .
Me : Eh , pubor la , mai waste time neh -.- . FAST LA .

- Take out lighter . -

Me : Cb la , got lighter still ask me have or not -_- , WALAU EH YOU .

- Take out cigg ~ . -

Me : Woahhhhhhhh ? ): WO YAO WO YAO !!
Brother : Sit down nah ^^ .
Brother : Eh mei , don't throw the cig thingy .
Me : Orh . Why neh ?
Brother : Later you'll know x) .

- I smoke few sticks nia , he smoke 3box -.- . -
- Got around 60++ cig thingy . -
- Collected and threw inside her house !! x) HAHAHAHAHAHA ! :3 -

Hilarious , y'know what me and my brother is going to do tonight ? x)
STAY TUNE ! :>



Ending here , BAIBAIBAIBAIBAIBAIBAI x) .



I’m tired of being sad . I’m tired of crying . I’m tired of heartaches . I’m tired of feeling empty inside . I’m tired of feeling inadequate and helpless . I’m tired of feeling stuck . I’m tired of feeling crazy . I’m tired of how insecured I am . I’m tired of how my emotion flies around like a rollarcoaster ride . I’m tired of being alone . I’m tired of dramas . I’m tired of the world . I’m tired of pretending . I’m tired of dreaming a life I know I will never have . I’m tired of missing people . I’m tired of people walking out of my life . I’m tired of myself . I’m tired of being angry . I’m tired of needing help . I’m tired of lies . I’m tired of empty promises . I’m tired of being different . I’m tired of faking it . I’m tired of wishing things could start all over again . I’m tired of being not ok . I’m tired wondering when I’m going to be happy .

I’m tired of being tired .

This is really straining me , I could hardly breathe .







★ C.TYLZXC here (: