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I used to tell you how i feel, but now i can’t, cause it’s about you …
4.51pm, 12September.



Hello my deardeardeardeardeardeareast readers! x)

DAMN you guys la hor :< .
Not referring to anyone.
But someone.
Sounds so funny o: ?
I mean, referring to ♥'XiaoMini, Lim, COCO.L, CHERYL(: , MickeyMousy.
Seriously lor, you all.
I want you all tag you all mai tag -_- .
I don't want you all tag, you all tag -.- .
THEN, NOW I WANT YOU ALL TAG.
Walau eh.
One m.i.a all m.i.a??!
Wth sia.
I want all my tags soon :( .

HAHAHA :3 .



You know what? Yes I have changed. I’m not as nice as I used to be, because I don’t want to get used or walked over, I don’t trust everyone and tell them my secrets, because behind every fake smile is a backstabbing bitch. I distance myself from people because in the end, they’re only going to leave. I have changed because I have realized that i'm the only person I can depend on.

Sigh ..
I'm very troubled lately, so.so.so.so much things is troubling me lately :/ .
I told people 'Death is not a solution' .

Yet, i'm a foolish one.
Thinking about death.
Suffering in a world, without happiness but sadness.
Sigh, yeah, i admit.
I'm a spoilt kid, what about you?



Anyway, i'm having flu + headache + cough :( .
Kill me please.

Alright, better start my post now ;) .



I've a wonderful day OUT yesterday! x)
Although i was f. moody and show my suckish attitude at times ..
But, you guys tolerated me.

Thanks alot (Y) !
I hope that f. suckish attitude of mine won't appear in school.
I hope i hope. Even it happened, i hope i won't vent on anyone -_- .
I'm seriously tired of schools stuff anyway.
What hatred and stuffs? Get out of my sights ..
Idon'treally wanna bother about it anymore.
I guess, i'm gonna study hard for my EOY, and push everything aside.
Kinda difficult, because i'm a person easily angry, cannot sit still (?), talks alot.
Whatever, i shall try.
I need to pass my EOY inorder to get my parents to sponsor some stuffs!! -_-



YESTERDAY.

Woke-up @ 9+am inthemorning.
Cabbed to Pioneermall to find them :) .
Then went back to her house.

Skipped .

Out with cousin @ 1pm ;) .
Thanks, as i'm f. stubborn to insist on going to Clarke quay to buy stickys! :>
& he's kind enough to accompany me, how great is this! :D

Reach there just to buy sticky and train-ed back to Boonlay to meet-up with the rest (Aunties, cousins & others nah -_-).
& met them @ KFC.
I saw someone i didn't like, so i gave a super black face.
& yeah, i apologise. As i was really moody.

I didn't eat much too, when i see him -_- .
DAMN IT.

Skipped.
(As i think that parts is boring though -.-).

Arcade next.
DDR with Clare' WIFEY ;) .
Blister on my legs now.
F. PAIN! :<



Went to YAKUN near interchage there to find them.
And there it goes my black face.

Was feeling sleepy, so i took a cup of coffee.
As i'm not being sacarstic, idon'tfeel sleepy atall after drinking :) .
How magical is that!
I'm serious duh! :>

So, they wanted to watch movie & take neoprints? o:
How long since i took neoprints har! :D
Anyway, i gave a black face again -_- .
As i hated someone, so i hated the whole family.
Find myself so childish.
I vent my hatred on some innocent kids eh?
Whatever.

His kids came to join us as well.
So, i decided not to go already, as i really gave a super black face and a f. moody mood.
They had a hardtime persuading me to join them.
& yeah, i did. But not neoprint duh! -_-

I stood there alone looking around while they were purchasing the tickets.
Thanks Clare' WIFEY for the treats! :>
Actually gotta catch the movie CATS & DOGS, but sadly idont'know why.
They caught the movie on HAUNTED CHANGI ;o .
Stood there with a ignoring and a obviously hating few of them faces.
& yeah, calvin came and joined us for the movie @ 9pm too :) .
He said Hello to me or whatever, but kena ignored too -.- .
So, we walked seperate routes to safra.
I walk mine, they walk theirs :o .

I just blast my music and just walk the way i wanted which leads to safra.
And there, we met again.
Wth.
Totally suckish.

& walked together to Safra.
6people onthequeue for pool.
Hellz -.- .
Seriously.

So, booked 9computers.
Audi-ed while others did their own things with the computer.

Audi-ed with Clare & Calvin x) .
Woah! :D

Being bhb abit :> .
My skills didn't deproved, deproved abit, abit nia!
& thats mine ..
Just that my chance is kinda cmi.
But i still can do 188 FM! :>
So, i'm sure that my skills is still stable duh.
But, my 1,2 fiesta skills totally can go eat shit :@ .

I own-ed CALVIN lotsa of time.
& even win Clare which i can't :/ .
Like finally duh :3 .
Super cold inside, and my hand just froze there :@ .
Damn it.



Anyway, there's pool table available, like finally :) .
But, we got the 8inch or whatever its called.

Kind of not use to playing 8inch.
I didn't win atall duh.
Kinda stress out.

Anyway, left at around 8pm.
Meet them at MAC, and there it goes my black face -_- .
AGAIN neh. Wtf lor.
Because of some matters la, thats why :/ .



Watched HAUNTED CHANGI.
Sigh. Disapointing.
I thought there will be some unexpected endings.
But, yeah, its really! "UNEXPECTED"!
But in a wrong one.

The ending was rather suckish.
Seriously.

Idon'teven understand a single shit (not really).
Same goes to everyone who watched with me.

Y'know something.
I realised something funny ^^ .
I love the audience in this movie!

Because whenever we shout.
We shout at the sametime and same scene.
How great.
I didn't hear any solo screaming anyway x) .

Let me kindly elaborate, but not the movie nah.
Okay, everything goes like this.

There's 9people watching HAUNTED CHANGI including me nah (: .
Then, this is the seating i know hur.

Starting from the 5th person i'm not sure le.
Calvin > Me > Clare > WenYuan > JiongHao (I think) > ShunAn (I think) > JiaMin (I think) > AhBi (I think) .

So, from my side behind is ALL BOYS.
From JiaMin's side is ALL GIRLS
So, whenever i screamed, i'll turned and looked behind and i'll go ROFLLMAO -.- .
Because there's alot of patterns y'know.
Like hiding. Don't dare to see the screen with both eyes.
Thats what i saw. Seriously, damn funny.

So, there is one part which they were spilt into two groups.
And the girl was in the room and blahblahblah, that parts really scares me.
& i really screamed :> .

Second one was, idon'tknow where.
I forget.
I screamed is because, i heard my little cousin of mine named WenYuan screamed, so i followed -_- .
Sounds so stupid.

& that CALVIN.
Was damn hilarious.
Because i was sitting side ways turning to Clare' WIFEY.
And using my bag to hide and watch :3 .
So, calvin la.
Also scared. Then the leg put on my chair -.- .
Still ask me move there abit somemore.
LOL SIA!
Then his hair, keep on poking my hands! !@£$%^*(^$£":@}!
Making me itchy! :@
Whatever :> .

Anyway, i've alotalotalot of fun! :D
I swear.



Movie ended at around 10.30pm? :>
So, we went to FAIR PRICE EXTRA to walkwalk.

And we even bought alcohol!
Tsktsktsk.
But, breezer nah -_- .

Hehehe :3 .
Anyway, i'm lazy to carry on.
Because its really funny, that it takes me ONE more hour for me to complete everything.

I just end my post here then! :)
Byebye ! :>




Guys, you must know that if a girl loved you then, chances are she still loves you heaps now. She’s probably crying herself to sleep every night over you while trying her hardest to keep on a happy face during the day.
Most likely, she still thinks about you all the time, everyday.
She probably still sits there imagining her future with you in it, then thinks back to the past and shatters.
Whenever something happens to her, good or bad, she’s most likely thinking of you and wishing that she could tell you all about it.
Whenever she hears a song on the radio she’ll think of you, not only because the song reminds her of you but also how much of her broken life right now can relate to the song. Whenever she watches a romantic movie or sees a cute couple, hand in hand, she starts to die a little more inside knowing that what used to be is now just a memory.
Whenever she thinks of you, she smiles, yet at the same time, she is suffering.
Although she may not show it, she is suffering a great deal of pain.
She’s suffering from remembering those happy moments that she’ll always remember but it seemed that you’ve already forgotten.
She’s afraid that you might forget her along the way as well.
On the outside, she may seem like all smiles and laughter, but what is behind the mask is someone who knows really well how to hide themselves.
You have no idea just how much pain she is suffering.
She still hurts, because the memories of you and her are not only too hard to forget, she also doesn’t want to forget, though sometimes she tries to forget, everything just somehow reminds her of you all over again.
She re-reads your old texts and convos because she misses you and what used to be.
She misses your hugs.
She misses your smiles.
She misses you entirely.
She loves you.
She fell for you, and you just watched her fall.
Seriously, if you didn’t intend to catch her, then don’t lead her on, don’t get her hopes up, cause the harder she falls for you, the more pain she’ll end up having to go through afterwards.
Don’t tell her you love her if you don’t mean it, chances are, she might do something crazy like believe it.
For the guys reading this, know that no matter how strong a girl may look on the outside, we all go through some sort of pain on the inside when you leave us.
And for the girls reading this, there must’ve been one boy in particular that was on your mind the whole entire time.







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